An unending feud.

All those who know me personally would agree I can sometimes be blunt. Rarely, but it can happen. Now, I'm not down with the whole "it's internet, you can be whomever you wish to be" crap where you can pretend you're a hot 19 year old girl with big juggs from Missouri just looking for a "good time". In fact, it's quite the opposite : I'm not very good at pretending to be someone else online.

Heck, I prefer it this way. More real, truer and sometimes viler. But it's me. Not some cockamamie superhero, superstar or any other sort of character people seem so keen on donning online. Nonetheless, I have no problem with people who do, it's a big uncharted and, as of yet, unruled place as it is, it's normal people re-imagine themselves better. I'm fairly certain internet helped millions of teenagers cope with their immense shyness. I wish this was available to me back in my teen years. Alas, aside from snail mail, nothing of the sort truly existed.

On the flipside, I'm afraid I may have a problem with arrogance from certain individuals online. Especially if they pretend to know absolutely anything there is to know about anything they remotely appreciate or like, trying to influence people in their favor by offering facts, tidbits and opinions on things everyone know are wrong, telling them about it, offer links to show you that your information is erroneous, selectively reading through replies and still try to convince everyone they're right.

You might call it pride, I call it "being too stupid to admit you may have erred on this".

Cue in the Rave.ca website. Its forum section specifically. A certain individual by the name of DJ Bliss has gotten into the habit of using material from this blog to discredit me on the forum there because - I'll assume - he can't also pin me with a pile of contradictions, misinformation and just plain idiocy. Now, this is the web so I know not everyone's a friend on there and I can't honestly pretend that "no, everyone loves me on there" because, let's face it, not everyone's on there to make friends. It's ok, fair game, different people, different strokes.

So I've made it a habit not to judge someone online based on first impressions since, well, there is no body language you can read with characters typed on a keyboard. Just like a battlefield, you musn't overestimate nor underestimate anyone. Each individual holding a weapon has the possibility of inflicting tremendous amounts of damage or just use it for defensive or pacifist purposes, only it's done verbally and the effects/damages are usually calculated psychologically and emotionally.

So at first, I gave Bliss a chance. Then during the course of a few months, we were treated to general arrogance, failed arguments, biased opinions, conflicting informations and even multiple online personalities ( one of them being black ) which, like any good narcissistic person out there, he vigorously denies because, we all know, narcissists are NEVER WRONG nor admit to have faulted. Ever. These people are so convinced they hold the absolute truth about any conceivable thing, it's a wonder why they aren't all f**king presidents or prime ministers. And since most of them haven't achieved most of their impossibly unreachable goals - like becoming presidents and such - they need to spice up their lives and dazzle others with lies about how they're an inspiration to an entire nation or a public figure like, let's say, Nelson Mandela. Needless to say, you're a pretty boring person if you try to convince others you're something as implausible as, say, an astronaut, an arms dealer, a Ultimate Fighting Championship champion or something along those lines, but it's even worse when you pretend to be an inspiration to Nelson Frickin' Mandela. Yeah, that certainly does not sound one wee bit narcissistic in nature. At all.

So what's a guy to do when someone you barely know and rarely contradicts himself, is trying to prove you wrong on a forum, others are sort of starting to take that person's side and it's really starting to make you look bad ? Why, you go through his blog to try and find some incriminating out-of-context comments to slap online so as to make that person look just as worse than you. At least, that's the idea.

So Bliss claims high and proud that I am threatening him and others because I said " I don't get much time on my own as of lately to sit down in front of any computers and type away on my blog about what ails me, how sad or happy I am and how bad I would like to purchase a medieval torture device and use it on several people (oh hai Bliss/Hammish!) " in my previous post here. How he was able to determine I wanted to use such a device on other people ON THIS MESSAGE BOARD specifically can only be attributed to his immense god-like powers of deduction, I suppose.

I guess I should be happy someone reads on here but this just feels like someone rummaging through dirt to find something to eat : it's pretty damn pointless.

To make matters worse, the guy leaves a comment on my previous post plugging his own insipid excuse of a blog. Well, you can't really call it a blog since the only thing readily accessible on there is publicity involving, you guessed it, him and his awesome miracle-healing DJing skills.

Having been a DJ previously, I know they have to be adaptive, change tracks on a whim according to what is "felt" on the dancefloor, open to suggestions, energetic, passionate and most of the time emotional about how they DJ, what they play and how they play it. None of those qualities are found on this blog : it's impersonal - in a "Here's my bio, here are my mixes, here's where I'm mixing tonight and.....well, that's it" way - , devoid of any interaction on the part of those who visit, bland, emotionless and of all things, there isn't even an embedded flash radio to listen to mixes and tracks, the LEAST you could do for your fans or for those who've heard about you and want to learn more. If this guy is half as popular as he claims to be, you'd think he'd invest a little more time on his official page. Apparently not.

Another thing : Facebook.

First off, DJ Bliss is such an original name, there are about 6 DJ Bliss on Facebook at this date. One from Dubai (United Arab Emirates), one from Canberra (Australia), one from France, one from Los Angeles, and one from Mississauga, Toronto and Montreal. Yeah, you read right : 3 DJ Bliss in 2 canadian provinces alone. That being said, if you clicked on every link in that last phrase, you will notice that all of these Facebook DJ pages are public and viewable by anyone... except for our good friend DJ Bliss in Montreal. According to Facebook " DjBliss only shares certain information with everyone. If you know DjBliss, add him as a friend on Facebook. ". So, it seems Bliss is SELECTIVE about who gets to be his fan... or not. Such accessibility as a DJ. Somehow, I can't help but think that "hey, you can like me... but only if I say it's ok and add you as my friends". I'm sure blocking your DJ's Facebook page must do wonders to get you booked by out-of-town promoters. I'm sorry but word of mouth goes only so far and in today's society, if you can't have a strong internet presence to match your real life reputation, you're clearly one step behind everyone else.

The MySpace page is just as laughable btw. Bliss' general info pompously lists under Sounds Like (which we assume will list another breaks DJ or artist which shares the same type of musical inspiration ) : "Good music expertly put together". And under the category Type of Label : "major".

Wow. I swear I saw the exact same entries on SuperGreg's page. As you know, he too is "NUMBAH ONE !"

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Well there you have it. Hopefully one day Bliss gets bored enough or angry enough at me to come sifting through my posts to find something incriminating, finds this and freaks the f**k out. If not, no big loss, I had a blast writing this.

As for me, your humble servant, I shall depart as this will be my last entry in this here blog.

I'm moving on to a bigger project which will also have a blog intergrated with way more flexibility than here ( sorry Blogger ). Those who need to know where I'm off to, please e-mail me.




Anyway, it was fun, kids. Our time together was brief but oh so colorful and hopefully, some of you appreciated it enough not to troll the sh!t out of this blog by taking everything here so literally, copy-pasting some parts of it and posting it in a message board somewhere, totally out of context, just because you're frustrated and can onlyresorts to elementary school antics to win arguments online.

Hasta la Vista everyone.

Well, it's been a while, I know.

I've neglected this blog and I apologize.

But hey, good news ! It'll be happening a lot more often.

I don't get much time on my own as of lately to sit down in front of any computers and type away on my blog about what ails me, how sad or happy I am and how bad I would like to purchase a medieval torture device and use it on several people (oh hai Bliss/Hammish!).

But REJOICE ! I shall indulge more often now that I am a proud owner of a JesusPhone. Yes. You heard...read right. A HezusPhone.

Let me talk about that for a second. I'll be quick, I promise. I cannot start to describe how much overated and glorified I think the Apple brand is. I cannot count the number of heated Mac vs PC debates I've participated in where I'd make sure to signify my disdain for people who believe you absolutely need to purchase a Mac for graphics design purpose, to which I'd retort that Photoshop on Mac is the exact same sh!t as on the PC, nothing different, and potentially your crappy graphics design output is a result of your own poor design skills, not the platform you are using. Your awesome design won't be more awesome if you do it on a Mac as opposed to a PC, it'll just have been conceived on a machine the "artist" thought justified to shell out a grand more for the exact same processing power... just because "real graphics designers use Macs".

Frankly, you're a goddam fashion victim if you believe this to be true and I can smell your American Apparel clothes from here.

Regardless, the iPhone managed to captivate my attention. I researched it and found that nothing is currently comparable to this thing. No. Don't even try and talk to me about the Blackberry Storm, the HTC Diamond or anything else that has a touch screen. I work in tech support for a cellphone provider, I can assure you I KNOW about what's out there currently.

The only thing that comes closest to it is Android phones. And even that's closer to a PDA than an iPhone.

So yeah, I shelled out my hard earned cash to get one of these over-hyped devices and got a über-expensive data plan for it...

... and I haven't been disappointed. Man, I wish I could say I have been but I'd be a lying SOB if I did.

Of course, it's not foolproof, some applications will crash occasionally but hey, what phone doesn't ? Hell, I troubleshoot phones with the Windows Mobile platform on them and either they just won't load or they are horribly slow. I swore by PDAs not so long ago... until I got my hands on this machine.

So yeah, not that I can blog on the go, I should be able to update this page more often.

So, standby for more incoming transmissions. None professing my love for the iPhone, thankfully. LOL.

Talk to you sooner than later, kids. ;-)

... when stuff happens.

As you can see there is a clear lack of updating done here. Does that mean it's dead ? No. More like undead.

So what's up ?

A lot and nothing at the same time. I go about my life as everybody else : busy, working and busy working. I do try to find the time to entertain and amuse myself as much as possible, otherwise I turn into one complaining loudmouthed mofo who won't shut up. Stress and tiredness does that to me.

So anyhoo, as much grandiose as my previous post was, I'm not sure if I'll be able to find the time to do such elaborate posts. But I'll start posting new stuff here in the next few days since it has slowed down a bit at work. Thankfully.

I should also find a way to get rid of the cobwebs on my Photoshop interface and get a real nice looking blog going.

I like this interface but it's nowhere near as awesome as what I'd like it to be. That might involve a move to Wordpress, I'm not sure, I'll let y'all kids know about that in due time.

In the meantime, check back periodically, I'll post new stuff more often.

C ya soon. ; )

I've yet to follow up on my desires to do a complete post of Music, Games and such as explained in the previous post since I'm super busy at work.

Current mood : hungry
Current track(s) : Entire Murderbot - Ruff In The Bunny Fizness
Current Game(s) : - Boom Blox


Let's just pretend this is Call of Duty 4 and I just got sniped in the head. Then I slump to the ground in a messy pool of blood. Much like that game and the more-often-than-not 15 seconds before you respawn and start being sniper fodder again, I pondered what I had done wrong, what avenues I have taken that lead to my demise.

And came to the conclusion my blog is a big fuming pile of cow turd.

Once I was finally able to clean the mess and get the stink out ( I can still smell it. DANG), I have decided to make this more interesting. No, I will not lower my standards and offer a " rate those tits " plugin or a " shoot the dart in Dubya's forehead " flash games. That's what Facebook is for. No, I have decided to offer a bit more content to try and please my audience ( read : to get more hits, dammit ). Ok, I wanna please me. If you don't like it, there are many other bland boring lifeless blog pages for your perusing needs.

So yeah, my posts will be devided into several sections from now on. Get used to it >:). I promise I'll make nice looking images to seperate the sections. In the meantime, enjoy ! Oh and see that blue bubble that reads " Hi! " at the bottom of each posts ? It's the " Leave a comment " button. DON'T CLICK IT, it's highly dangerous, poisonous and radioactive ! I leave it up to you to do the right thing.


This section won't have any names. In fact, next posts won't even start with that nifty bar I just created. It'll start with the CURRENT stuff and I'll start throwing a fit right afterwards. To get some steam out, you know ? So here goes :

- Will get a car soon. Yes. After much unnecessary delay, I will finally be able to go to a f**king shopping mall, buy some stuff and NOT HAVE TO CARRY A SH!TLOAD OF BAGS HOME. Hey, f**k off : I desperately tried to be good to the environment by taking public transportation but this city's transit company can't plan for sh!t. How many times have I been late as they closed the entire subway line because of some flames in one garbage can in ONE subway station. How is a fire even possible if there is NO SMOKING ALLOWED inside the stations ? Also, try explaining to your boss that you're late because the bus that leaves once every 30 minutes AT RUSH HOUR, mind you, has decided to leave 10 minutes earlier for sh!ts and giggles and that your workplace is in the middle of an industrial neighborhood where two highways cross, a public transportation's no man's land. I have f**king tried to have patience but I've given as much as I could give.



Yes, that "MUSIC" thing sucks, doesn't it ? I'll get around to that shortly. I'll also revamp the section here. Now, on to beatz :

:::: MURDAHBOOOOT ! BOMBACLOT ! ::::
Type : Absolutely insane jungle with gangster hip-hop and reggae rhymes thrown into the blender.
For months now I have been addicted to downloading the Drum & Bass Delirium packs from the ReleaseLog website. It's a compilation of Drum & Bass available once or twice a month. Yes. Illegal music. Makes you feel like a renegade, eh you iTunes b!tches ? The latest installment contains Murderbot's latest album, " Ruff In The Bunny Fizness ". Who, you say ?

A scrawny kid from Chicago named Christopher Shively aka Chrissy Murderbot or Murderbot for short. As his album's name and picture here implies, he's not to be taken seriously. Hell, even his musical styles range from jungle to dubstep to house to grime to every-style-that'll-make-you-shake-your-booty-on-the-dancefloor. His Ruff In The Bunny Fizness inflicts severe brain damage and hightens your serotonin levels simultaneously.

I have so many other tracks to listen to on my MP3 player but I can't. Stop. Listening. To. That. Album. It's driving me crazy. The good kind of crazy, thankfully. I've always loved jungle but fill it with trashy gangster hip-hop lyrics and audio clips of reggae and with upbeat melodies and jazzy basslines and you've got the something more addictive than rocks of heroïn-laced crack. From the jolly grin inspiring style of Rub-A-Dub Soldier and insane jungle beats to the funky gangstah-sh!t extravaganza of OnlyWorld, Murderbot delivers the audible jungle equivalent of smoking some demented ganja, getting a BJ by a supermodel and playing GTA IV at the SAME TIME. Listen :

:: Murderbot - Rub-A-Dub Soldier

:: Murderbot - OnlyWorld


More stuff to come soon. :)

Ah- HA !

And so you thought I was dead. You wish but no. I'm alive and bitching !

In fact, that big burly italian guy you sent after me did not complete his tasks as I foiled his plans before he could complete his mission. Well, what did you expect from a cheap hitman ? Not only that but he misplaced his gun when he tried to " wack " me, he told me not to move he'd be right back. And bam, you just made a few extra grands by not fullfilling your contract.

Two words about that : colossal FAIL.

Anyway, I just thought I would take this opportunity to lay waste to more unsuspecting innocent kilobytes and just write all sorts of inane crap like what you're all used to. So here goes :

- so yeah, I moved recently, it was ok, my new place rocks the crap out of yours and there's nothing you can do about it. Cry me a river, will you ? I SAID IT'S BETTER THAN YOURS. You don't wanna argue with me on that. Do you have 2 roman columns in your living room ? A bath with a seperate shower ? A skylight in your bathroom ? A big kitchen with black ceramic tile counters ? I though so. That so wants to make me buy a digital camera and post pictures all over here and put it in your face. Serves you right.

- I have a cold. And colds suck unbelievable ass. But I've always been the generous kind so I feel I should share the love by sneezing on as many people as humanly possible. Just to spread the love, you know ?

- I can't wait to buy a friggin' HD tv. F*ck. Everyone's got them. I've got a big ass tv with rabbit ears, for crying out loud. I really should get down with that whole " 21st century " vibe everyone seems to be on right now. Get with the times.

- which brings me to the absence of new gen consoles. I WILL get a Wii, then an Xbox 360, I will pay for a goddam Xbox Live subscription and I will LIKE IT. I like PC games as much as the next guy by I can't wait to play games in HD without having to bother about system requirements.

- where the f**k is summer ? Canada is awesome but it's got its seasons all screwed up. How many countries you know have 8 month winters and the remaining 4 a season called " sprinsummautumn " ?

- I will get a car soon. Absolute personal delivery. Yes, pollution this, extra costs that, gas prices this and insurance that. I'd like to see you want to take a nice relaxing walk with your beloved in a forest OUTSIDE OF TOWN without a car. My idea of a romantic getaway doesn't involve taking the smelly cramped up suburban train, bus and taxi to the middle of nowhere. There is also shopping to be done and I need a TRUNK, dammit.


That is all for now, more soon as I get angrier. LOL.

It has come to my attention that...

... well, nothing came up to my attention, really.

I'm moving, I'm tired, I'm working a lot and sometimes not at all while I'm working. Go figure.

Ifind myself posting a lot again on Rave.ca recently and I never had so f**king much fun there especially when you hook up with an old friend. I can finally talk with an actual INTERESTING co-worker (we are in different compagnies but damn it feels familiar in a sea of call center drones).

Yeah, Rave.ca. Who would've thought, right ?

I've been posting on message boards ever since I got a computer. Considering I was raving extensively in the last few years, it was logical to me that I would spend my time posting on ones that were "rave" themed. I've been on so many. I started on something called Vrave. That required the use of Windows' Telnet program :



I had to key in a specific address on a university server lord knows where (Arizona or Utah or something). This was before message boards. It was awesome, it was like a real-time chat.


Then came Raveweb, where you could witness first hand how extensively deformed the mind would get on designer drugs.

Then came Technodium, a site for ravers to get info that featured forums to get in touch with other ravers, like Raveweb, but just opened the doors to flame wars and general bitching. The era of the jaded Montreal ravers was born. I posted there so often, I couldn't count. My posts were always informative, as unbiased as possible but always mature, precise and incredibly lenghty. I would just go on and on and wouldn't shut up.

I was angry at the rave scene's inability to pick up it's own poop and stand tall and proud, all the kids cared about was hearing whatever loud music was playing and was just an outlet for them to be fucked up on 14 different drugs away from their rooms, backyards and their parents.

Then came Rave.ca (or Ravewave not so long ago) where I started the same cycle of trying to get newer ravers to hear the voice of old school by posting long winding posts about " how the rave scene was better and that ", " how raves should be this " and so on and so forth.

Then I got hooked up with my girlfriend and forgot about message boards for a while.

Now, I'm at work. And for the first time, I have access to the internet. And I can't start to say how awesome this is. And in times of extreme boredom, I've decided to post there again. And I must say I'm having more fun now than ever.

Why ? I've dropped the whole " listen to the voice of reason " bullshit. I don't have time to educate kids about a scene I've dropped a while ago. I couldn't care less if kids are too stoned to throw raves anymore. Got back to snorting K in your basements, losers.

I'm using my jadedness for evil now, I'm edgier, meaner and probably 1000 times more fun than the self-righteous moron I was back then. Why try to instill knowledge upon people who just don't give a f**k ?

I've learned a lesson. I shouldn't use the internet for propaganda like so many others. It's an outlet for my emotions, a place where I can drop a big pile of crap and witness how people react. No, I don't diss or hate people... I play the mirror : I throw jokes back to their faces tenfolds.

And you know what, it feels great. Very liberating. We should all try to be less stubborn little bastards online and laugh a little...

... then maybe the world wouldn't look so bland and dark.